ovaj blog tu stoji samo kao ispušni ventil i pošto ga nitko neće čitati smatrat ću ga dnevnikom....
tu se postojat samo moje "dubokoumne" misli i gluposti koje švrljam pod satom....
ako me itko treba iz bilo kojeg razloga moj msn je
Angel - put sad wings around me now
Protect me from this world of sin
So that we can rise again
Oh angel - we can find our way somehow
Escaping from the world we're in
To a place where we began
And I know we'll find
A better place and peace of mind
Just tell me that it's all you want
- for you and me
Angel won't you set me free
Angel remember how we'd chase the sun
Then reaching for the stars at night
As our lives had just begun
When I close my eyes
I hear your velvet wings and cry
I'm waiting here with open arms
- oh can't you see
Angel shine your light on me
Oh angel will we meet once more
- I'll pray
When all my sins are washed away
Hold me inside your wings and stay
Oh! angel take me far away
Put sad wings around me now
Angel take me far away
Put sad wings around me now
So that we can rise again
Lonely Day
Such a lonely day
And it’s mine
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
Should be banned
It’s a day that I can't stand
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
Shouldn’t exist
It's a day that I’ll never miss
Such a lonely day
And it’s mine
The most loneliest day of my life
And if you go,
I wanna go with you
And if you die,
I wanna die with you
Take your hand and walk away
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
And it’s mine
It’s a day that I’m glad I survived
Demon You / Lily Anne
I met the demon on a summer's day
Her name was Lily Anne was what she said
She was standing there alone, waiting for the fall
So I asked her would she wait for me
For night to take this day away
But with the night she ran away, the demon clad in grey
I summon the demon you
So I learned the way the demon plays
From this beauty clad in ashen grey
How she left me with the fall, left me all alone
Only sorcerers of death remains
Only shadowed ones as some would see
And the night that sings to me, of Lily Anne the grey
I summon the demon you
Kill Miss America Lyrics
I wanna be a fucking prize winning drag queen
With the platform boots and the tombstone looks
I want the whole world to hate me
With the bolts on my neck and the gun in my dress
Tonight I’m the prettiest zombie alive
I’m alive, I’m alive, I’m alive
And I don’t care what it takes I’m gonna win the prize
I’m gonna kill Miss America
Kill Miss America
Kill Miss America
Kill Miss America, yeah, yeah, yeah
I want you to spit when you see me
And if you don’t I’m gonna spit on you
I love it when they hate me
And when I win I’m gonna rub it in
Tonight I’m the prettiest zombie alive
I’m alive, I’m alive, I’m alive
And I don’t care what it takes I’m gonna win the prize
I’m gonna kill Miss America
Kill Miss America
Kill Miss America
Kill Miss America, yeah, yeah, yeah
I got murder on my mind
Ten seconds till death tonight
Mama’s little baby’s gonna die, die, die
I’ll cut her throat and take what’s mine
(insert scream here)
I’m gonna kill Miss America
Kill Miss America
Kill Miss America
Kill Miss America
I’m gonna kill miss America
I’m gonna kill miss America
I’m gonna kill miss America
I’m gonna kill miss America, America
Kill, kill, kill miss America
The Power Of One
“My father’s land, my mother’s tongue
Misleaded me so shamelessly
For many years I misbelieved
The hatred is the path for me..”
Father I have killed many angels,
I think.
I will now walk to the sea.
I hope I will someday forgive me
Please moor
my empty boat on a pier
I can blame for the blue blood
that runs in my veins.
But I seem to forget that we
are all the same.
In your own blaze of hate
you've spawn the fear in many lifes
You've taken action thinking
it was all said on the signs.
You cannot heal the feeling burning
deep inside your spine
You now collapse,
cave in revealing scabby marks of life
Mother I've seen too much,
I hate to live my life.
Forgot every word you told me,
stubborn little child, (angel of your life)
I have to find my Eden now,
the gates I left behind.
But the pain will remain.
No power to gain.
Now I have time to dwell on,
self awareness, dreadful crime.
I saw the colors too bright,
not knowing that I was blind.
I slayed a man who took
a chance and drank the forbidden wine.
The map I draw reveals that
I have been complete, machine, in team.
Father I've seen too much,
I hate to live my life.
Forgot every word you told me,
stubborn little child, (angel of your life)
I have to find my Eden now,
the gates I left behind.
The pain will remain.
No power to gain.
Mother where's your son.
When has this begun?
Who has been the fool?
No one was born to be a
servant or a slave.
Who can tell me the color
of the rain?
In the world that we live in,
the things said and done
They can well overrun
The power of one.
No one was born to be
a servant or a slave.
Can you tell me the color
of the rain?
In the world that we live in,
the things said and done
They can well overrun
The power of one.
To live and let die
To give hope and take life
Is that what you're here for?
To think that you are right
To make sure it won't fly
Is the making of a hate crime
In the lands of the brave,
In the homes of the land slaves,
We are all the same
I need to believe.
There's more than the eye can see
All colors of rainbow.
No one was born to be a slave
Seek the past and place the blame
Tell me the color of the rain
No one was born to be a master
In the land we live, we die
praise the oneness, praise the lie
To bind a web around the faker
We will need a true
Rainmaker
No one was born to be a slave
Seek the past and place the blame
Tell me the color of the rain
No one was born to be a master
"Children of Abel,
Children of Cain
Can live in harmony,
without shame
The keys that I grant thee,
The Sacred Land
Are dry desert sand
on the palm of your hand
Without the water,
the wisdom of past
Will run through your fingers,
forgotten so fast
Thus now when I leave you,
I'm truly blind
This blindness, this blessing,
the hope of mankind..."
False News Travel Fast Lyrics
I Look out the Window,
I see the sun in the sky, for now,
it is not for me
Stories of old times,
Black Book of Lies with
no reason nor rhymes
No secrets, no disguise
Colour of the jealousy
that hangs over thee
Why don't you believe,
You still do not know me
Books of true tales,
Mirrors of tragedy
Remorseful and pale
As always
These news travel fast
Walking cross snowfields,
how can I trust in this path
I leave
fading behind me
Pleading not guilty.
It's in the nature of humankind
Installed in a manchild
Life can -do it in many ways,
toss dirt on your face
But I am your man,
and for you I do all I can
[Repeat chorus]
Standing on the station,
watching your train slowly
disappear
I'm only shell of a man,
I thought you knew who I am...
But go ahead and blame the fool
You have beliefs that aren't true
I have not lived the life you
read from
The books of true tales,
Mirrors of tragedy
My life is no game
It's a real shame the
false news travel fast
Why do you keep me
in the agony?
"The Book of true tales"
How can you hate and
keep me in this agony?
"The Mirror of tragedy"
I haven't lied, I haven't
cheated!
"The Book of true tales"
What do you think?
What do you see when
you look in
"The Mirror of tragedy"
And I'm still your man,
and for you I do all I can
Books of true tales,
Mirrors of tragedy
Remorseful and pale
as in past,
these news travel fast
The books of true tales,
Mirrors of tragedy
My life is no game
It's a real shame the
false news travel fast
Breathe No More Lyrics
I've been walking in the
mirror for so long
That I've come to believe
my soul's on the other side.
All the little pieces falling
shattered
Shards of me too sharp to
put back together;
Too small to matter,
But big enough to cut me
into so many little pieces
If I try to touch her
And I bleed,
I bleed
And I breathe,
I breathe no more.
I take a breath and I try to
turn off what my spirit's will.
Yet how can you refuse to
drink like a stubborn child.
Lie to me, convince me that
I've been sick forever
And all of this will make
sense when I get better.
But I know the difference
Between myself and my reflection.
I just can't help but to wonder:
Which of us do you love?
so I bleed,
I bleed
And I breathe,
I breathe no-
Bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe
I breathe,
I breathe...no...more.
Unfaithful-Rihanna
Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cuz it seems that wrong
Really loves my company
He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that this sky is blue
But clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true
And I know that he knows
I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy
with some other guy
I can see him dyin'
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Every time I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...A murderer
I feel it in the air
As I'm doin' my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss up on my cheek
As he reluctantly
Accepts I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well
Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see you dying
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...a murderer
Our Love...his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this anymore ...whoah..anymore
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...a murderer... a murderer...
no no no yeah yeah yeah..
As I lay dying-Forever
Forever, your eyes will hold the
memory.
I saw your heart as it overtook
me.
We tried so hard to understand
and reason
But in that one moment, I gave
my heart away.
I gave my heart away.
In that moment, I gave my heart
away.
In that moment, I gave my heart
away.
With that perfect breath where my
mind lay beside me
And all I knew is what had overtaken me.
With no reason, I am comforted by
inability to understand.
Forever, your eyes will hold the memory.
I saw your heart as it overtook me.
We tried so hard to understand and
reason
But in that one moment, I gave
my heart away.
I gave my heart away.
In that moment, I gave my heart away.
In that moment, I gave my heart away.
Forever your eyes will hold the memory.
Forever your eyes will hold the memory.
Forever your eyes will hold the memory.
When I wake from this dream,
Will your smile still open my heart
And leave me transparent?
When I wake from this dream,
Will your smile still open my heart?
16.04.2007.ponedjeljak
....I trust YOU...
Vjerujem ti neizmjerno...
al vidim da to ne znaš...
ti mi puno značiš...
ništa drugo ne...
možda sam emocionalna....
iako ne želim priznat...
al kako ti jednostavno objasnit...
zašto misliš da sam nešto što možda nisam...
zašto misliš....
Možda sam ja ta kojoj sve ide krivo...
i možda imam srce od kamena...
ponekad me gane ljudska patnja...
al i to je sve rjeđe...
odmaknula sam se od svega
od sveg što sam zvala prijateljstvom...
čak i anđeli nauče na poraz,
kako ne bi ja mogla...
Teško mi je moje breme,
a ne da nosim još i tuđe...
tebi se pokušam otvoriti...
al svaka tvoja upadica me tjera da to ne radim...
rijetki su kojima sam rekla neke stvari...
al i ti ćeš možda jednom saznat MOJU najveću
tajnu...moju sramotu...
ne znam zašto ti to u lice ne mogu reći...
Izgubim se u tvom osmjehu :)
u tvojim očima...
al ti mi ne vjeruješ...
to me boli...
iako to govoriš kroz šalu...
ti mi ne vjeruješ...
nadam se samo da kad dosegneš
razinu ljubomore,kad pretjeraš...
da ćeš to spriječiti....prije nego...
prije nego se ne dogodi nešto...
Kad padnem i
kad me ne dignu...
nitko me podići i
obići neće...
možda ću dobiti
pokoju suzu tužnu,
al samo dok ne padnem
u zaborav...
Kad padnem i
kad me ne dignu...
kad ostanem na pločniku
bijelog lica i
iskrivljenog osmjeha...
kad ostanem ležati
poput porculanske lutke
bez srca...
Nestat ću u sjeni,a
jedini spomen bit će
jedna nadgrobna ploča...
napukla ploča na kojoj će pisat
"ovdje ležim ja",a
ispod blata,trnja i korova
"nekad je bila voljena"
uz jednu kaplju zaboravljena...
Možda mi nekad dođu
da obasjaju grob...
skinu paučinu i
osvjetle obraz moj...
Možda dođu...možda...
možda....
Am standing on the roof top now
and I'm ready to fall...
ona je blato....
ona je bljuzga...
ona je smeće na cesti života...
nikom nam ne koristi
samo smeta....
LJUBOMORA....
ona ubija ljubav....
ubija snove....
ona je kriva za razdore...
nesreća je i smrt...
ona je kukolj u zlatnom žitu...
katran je na životnom putu...
ona je spas kad se od ljubavi odvojimo...
ona je strah kojeg se bojimo....
vezala nas lancima srama i boli....
predala nas suzama koje voli...
moja duša je još uvjek čista
al kao ni tvoja više ne blista...
Večeras saznah da bol boli...
iako preboljena..zaboli....
sreća boli,a i patnja...
zašto mi lažu...
da te spase....
zašto mi lažu....
da izgubim pogled na se....
dosta mi je sveg i boli i patnje....
dosta mi je sveg i sreće i nemira...
ne želim ništa...
ništa vezano uz muški rod....
jedno jebeno prokleto NIŠTA....
dao Bog da svi prokleti nestanu...
da svima sjena odapne...
dao Bog da svi umru u agoniji....
svi oni koji su nekad nekom zadali boli....
Novac je začin života...
novac je patnja i ljepota....
čišta sramota...
novac je bol i ljubomora....
tuga i prijevara....
Bol za drugim ne osjećam više...
samo sanjam da opet će doći...
usred noći....
učini mi se ponekad njegovo lice...
al više nije isto....
ne blješti...ne isijava....
sad je samo sjena kao i sve drugo....
Bilo pa prošlo....
rečenica koja je pomogla riješiti cijelu spaćku...
hvala na tome...prijatelju...
još suza za kraj...al to oproštaj nije...znaj....
Hm...malo je čudno što tu gore piše o novcu...
al me Shakhti inspirirao....
samo još nešto....
Malo moje ĐUBRE
RUKA MI JE NATEKLA KO DINJA OD PRESLATKOG UGRIZA....
al mi je fancy...imam bolesnu šljivu...pusa....
Pišem pismo,
više nismo,
nismo jedno
sad smo dvoje....
Dvoje stranaca sa jednom pričom,
dvoje uništenih PROŠLOŠĆU,
prošlost je kuja i treba je ubiti....
Mrzim svoje tijelo,
mrzim svoj mozak,
mrzim svoje postupke,
mrzim svoj postanak,
mrzim svoju stvarnost i cjeli život,
mrzim majku i oca jer su mi usahnuli život,
a ponajviše sebe mrzim.
Jebemu mater kako je sreća prevrtljiva kuja...
tako te namami u svoje okrilje i
onda te sjebe ko malo štene...
meni je to napravila sinoć...
Srce me boli,pati i puca na dva dijela
rezat se neću bit ću jaka
želim te,a tebe tuga opsjeda
nesretan si,a smiješ se
nisi jedini,eto me
plakat ću danima u tišini,neće nitko znat
nosit ću tvoj spomen uz vrat...
Molitvom nikom pomoći neću
ti dok shvatiš nestat ću
Molim te Bože,pomozi da budem jaka
daj da zaboravim te plave oči koje
su me tako kratko uveseljavale i
davale neki čudni smisao
Pomozi mi da zaboravim te dodire
koji su tako jedinstveno dirali
ne mogu tražit nemoguće,
al pomozi da bar malo zaboravim
Njegov spomen će živjet još dugo,
kao i od ostalih,
al prisutnost od sad pa nadalje neće,
ne može jednostavno preživjeti pored mene
ŽAO MI JE,
CIJELA STVAR JE U KURCU,
NE MOGU VIŠE,
PUKNUT ĆU,
ODLAZIM,
moji obrisi su svijetli...
nema me....
traže me...
ma kog ja zavaravam...
nema me....
želim da me nađu...da shvate gdje sam...
moje truplo trune...nestaje....
patnja...
bol....
samoća....
nesreća na dlanu....
nema sreće u danu....
pišem...
patim...
iščezavam...
molitva ne vrijedi...
obrisi su blijedi....
potpuno me nema...
padam u zaborav.....
Moj svijet je prepun tuge,boli i sramote...
nedostaje mi dodir ljubavi i jedinstva....
svaka suza koja krene niz obraz,prokleta je...jer nestaje...
nedostaju mi dodiri i nježnost,nitko ne razumije...
potrebna mi je majčinska ljubav,a ne tapšanje...
nisam zadovoljna jednim pogledom kao znakom "volim te",
želim da mi kažeš...da me voliš,da si sretna što sam tvoja krv...
želim da mi kažeš da me voliš,a ne stiskom ruke da sama odgonetavam...
nedostaje mi ljubav,dodiri i nježnost...
jedino što trenutno trebam je zagrljaj,nježan i spontan...
samo to tražim majko od tebe....
samo to želim oče od tebe....
ZAGRLJAJ.....
mislim da mali poljubac puno znači....
ali ja zbog vas ne mogu nikome izjaviti ljubav...izraziti....pokazati...
vi ste krivi za tu moju nemoć...tako ste me odgojili....
samo vas za to krivim....
potrebni ste mi,recite mi da sam bila voljena...
da ću vam nedostajat kad umrem prije vremena....
recite molim vas...da sam vaša malena...
tuga me razdire,prijatelji ostavljaju...
ne mogu to sama podnositi,trebam nekoga...
želim nekoga....
znam da je teško,al samo želim bit voljena....
uh dugo nisam ništa pisala...al evo opet malo slika...i možda malo teksta... :)
MATURALAC-PRAG
hm...trenutno nemam neke posebne inspiracije...al kad će mi se dat prepisat ću stare stvari... :)
evo samo da kažem svojoj dragoj da digne glavu gora (sve će bit u redu)...moje malo đubre šaljem ti vejiku pusu....
remi i anna i romi...uvijek znaju da sam uz njih i da ak treba nešto nek traže,a to kaj se nekad zakačimo shvatite kao normalno... :(
starom i staroj šaljem izraze ljutnje i svega drugog...
velike puse šaljem svojoj djeci s odjela,pogotovo maloj Josipi iako neće nikad ovo pročitat i do sutra će moj glas zaboravit :(
ah,pusu šaljem i svom mikiju...
za kraj nešto neobično...
Rihanna-Final goodbye
I never should of waited so long to say
What I've always known since the very first day
Thought that you would stay forever with me
But the time has come to leave
Before we turn out the lights and close our eyes
I'll tell you a secret I've held all my life
Its you that I live for, and for you I die
So I'll Lay here with you til the final goodbye
Hold, draw me close, close to my lips
Listen intently as I tell you this
Outside the world wages its rewards, I'll rest in peace as long as you know
Before we turn out the lights and close our eyes
I'll tell you a secret I've held all my life
Its you that I live for, and for you I die
So I'll Lay here with you til the final goodbye
Promise you our love will carry on
Until you turn eternal, we belong
Before we turn out the lights and close our eyes
I'll tell you a secret I've held all my life
Its you that I live for, and for you I die
So I'll Lay here with you til the final goodbye
His respectful lips for the last time
Can spell out the lyrics to love in the sky
Its you that I live for and for you I die
So I'll lay here with you till the final goodbye
Goodbye
nije moj stil,al mi se jako sviđa...pusa do daljnjeg...
Ah,do prije pet minuta sam se osjećala kao da mi nitko i ništa ne može pokvariti ovaj dosadan dan.Danas sam se smijala,ali ne onim lažnim osmjehom kao inače,danas sam ispuštala prave zvukove veselja,a sad.....
Pročitah jedan jako deprimirajući post o prijateljstvu.I kad se napokon pomirim sa sobom da mi prijatelji ništa ne znače u životu,rasplakala sam se kad sam pročitala da u biti postoji još toliko ljudi koji u dubini duše pate što nemaju pravog prijatelja. Ne znam tko je to,al se vidi da užasno pati,da je izgriza iznutra prema van. Jedina joj je želja imati pravog prijatelja.
Sad sjedim sama u istom razmišljanju. Zašto je netko rođen pod sretnom zvijezdom,pod zvijezdom ispod koje se nalazi još jedna,a ona predstavlja pravog prijatelja. Ovo je neiscrpna tema,može se o njoj pisati,može se pjevati,plakat,rezati,ali ako ti nije suđeno onda jednostavno nije. Smatram da sam jedna od tih i da jednostavno nikad neću pronaći nekog ko će me poslušati,ali stvarno poslušati,a ne razmišljati što će jesti dok ja istresam svoje srce na dlan. Kad ja slušam,unesen se u to i pokušam pomoći najbolje što mogu,dam sve od sebe,ali kad ti nešto fali,lagano kržljaš i postepeno ti postaje sve svejedno.
Pokušala sam se utješiti,razgovarati sa sobom,pokušala sam si biti najbolja prijateljicca,ali ako ne kažeš nekome što te muči s vremenom ćeš puknuti,srce će ti puknuti.Ne,ne mogu tako više,sad sam u biti shvatila kako sam jadna,koliko je moj život bezvrijedan. Shvatila sam da ispod moje zvijezde ne postoji druga srodna zvijezda. I nakon tisuća godina nitko se neće približiti toj zvijezdi sve dok ne nestane,ne preetvori se u sitne čestice nevidljive prašine.
Ne,neću pisati o onoj srpskoj grupi....jednostavno ne znam kakav naslov dati....
evo trenutno nisam previše inspirirana i ne mogu se jadati pošto me još nitko nije razljutio....
mogu se pohvaliti da je prošlo već tjedan dana odkad sam se posljednji put rezucnula....al to je zbog prakse,pa tak da sam u biti prisiljenja....
za one koji su se ponadali da ću opet popljuvati sve,smisao života i općenito,evo neću....
jedino sam deprimirana zato kaj ne izlazim puno iz kuće jer kao učim za popravni i zbog toga se debljam ko životinja....sam idem s jednog kreveta na drugi i s jednog stolca na drugi....
ne znam što ću....ak ću se spremat na more ovak masna,neću ni ić....
evo sad sam dobila inspiraciju...debela sam...koma....
aaaaa....poludit ću...to nikak ne ide dolje,a ja sam sve više jedem....nakon svake dijete nabacim regularno kilu-dvije...to više tak ne ide...evo i sad jedem dok ovo pišem...e pa neću....
sad se idem duriti....al idem prvo po čašu coca-cole.....
pišem oko petog kad čujem rezultate popravnog....nadam se najboljem....a do tad ću
Ne znam koliko se puta treba na glas nasmijati ovoj uzrečici....
Alkohol sam još više sjebe ljude koji su već sjebani....
U ovom svijetu više ne postoji pravda,naši životi nisu životi...
Već se neko vrijeme osjećam kao da su me starci ko dijete pokupili na nekom pločniku,i da to nisu moji biološki roditelji...
čovječe,pa ti ljudi su dobrice,nisu u životu nikaj loše napravili (osim možda mene)....
Nije moguće da negdje u meni kolaju njihovi geni i njihova krv...
Nije moguće da sam JA bila vezana pupčanom vrpom za ovu majku....
Ne,dal da se tiješim ili da budem tužna kad pomislim da su negdje moji pravi starci,neki odrpanci,mračnjaci izopačenih umova koji su ostavili dijete na pločniku da krepa,a slučajno su naišli dobri ljudi....
Ah...previše razbijam svoju glavu glupostima,umjesto da im se uvlačim u guzice da me više ne tjeraju zauvijek van iz kuće...
neg da napokon ispravim sva sranja i posvetim se opijanju....
Jer tad neće biti ni tuge ni boli....samo ALKOHOL.....
nema više života,nema više sreće...tuga vlada ostatkom moga tijela....
nema ljubavi,nema radosti,samo tuga i besmislice.....
rekoše mi večeras da se ne režem...navodno zbog moje dobrobiti,ne mogu više,moram pustiti barem kaplju,kaplju zbog tebe....
plačem,ridam,cijelu večer....niz mokro tijelo cijeti se svježa krvi.....
ne,ne želim više,ne želim više živjeti....
smatram da moj svijet više neće postojati ako se ne pojaviš opet u njemu...
dođi i spasi me,samo ti to možeš....molim te....
posljednji te put molim,dođi i oslobodi me......
